I started losing weight about a year ago, deciding that this time there would be no fast diets. I want to do this for good this time. So far I have lost 42 of the 80 pounds I need to shed, and guess what: no one has noticed my weight loss. I’m tall, 5’ 10”, so I hide some weight. But....
Yesterday I was really thinking about this and came to some conclusions:
1. I am still fat. I need to lose 38 pounds. That’s 4 10-pound bags of potatoes.
2. People don’t really look that carefully at others. And if they do notice, maybe they are afraid or embarrassed to ask.
3. Most significantly: They still see me as fat.
That last one hurts but it is the reality I need.
For the past few months this has really bothered me. I want people to notice, to tell me good job, and encourage me on as bystanders do for runners at a race.
Not anymore. What I identified above was not easy to do but it was an important exercise because it made me think of my ultimate why. Why am I on this journey?
And bottom line: I am not losing weight for other people. I am doing it for me. And I know how much I am losing. And most importantly, I know why and that will keep me going.
And one of these days I know someone will look at me and ask: "Are you losing weight?" And I'll burst out laughing.